For the restless spirit!

Doha international airport  Aug 14 12.20 am First stop during our flight to Rome. A lay over of 3 hours. Could be quite boring when you are roaring to go....  But am realising one thing as I watch my daughter and the hundreds of other passengers in the transfers lounge.... As long as there is Internet, your world may remain pretty much the same .... Wherever you go! You still talk to the same bunch of people on FB, whatsapp, Skype, etc .... Some "social" networking this is!!!!  Not sure if the world is getting closer through technology or people are so remote in their ways of interacting anyways, it really does not matter. The restless spirit wonders...

I am truly bitten by this bug - ever since I was a little child and wanted to be an air-hostess I guess, because they got to travel so much.......now I know better, and am happy with my choice of profession ...but the urge to travel remains.... I am truly restless in spirit... And as I prepare to travel tomorrow, my spirit soars ....like a bird preparing to take take flight ....to wander across unknown territories, to lose myself amidst people I will never know or see again, but who like me, have the same travel bug.... I look forward to every new experience ....new lands, new languages, new food, new culture, new histories, new geographies - a lot alien to me, but yet I am bonded to them all through the brotherhood of mankind. I want to savor each new sight and etch it in my memories as I have every time I have travelled, so that when these bones do not allow me to roam, the spirit remains unbridled ....through these memories..... Call me selfish if you will, but momentar...

Yesterday, a close friend told me "aap baatein nahin, bahut saari baatein karte ho"!!!! And I guess he is right :) This morning when I was responding to another close friend's email, I realized the same - I always have a lot to say, in general and for people who matter to me, may God help them!!!!! I agree that generally I have a lot to say - whether I am happy, excited, impressed, anxious or even sad. Damn it, now that I think about it - everything I do, I do too much - pura dil se!!! <3 Possibly the one thing missing in my life is "balance" or "moderation" - alien words, so not me! But do I miss them? No! Not at all. I know I may possibly be better off in some situations if my head had a little more clout with my heart, but then nah! that would not be me.....Have managed ok so far and have no regrets, so why bother? Actually, I firmly believe that whatever you do, you should do with passion - even if it is as negative an emotion as...

I am sad... Today I am sad, and that's not me! Yet the reason behind, I just can't see.  I feel listless, a bit like a rag doll that on its own, simply cannot stand tall. Oh winds, please blow strong and lift my soul I feel like a fallen leaf, that has lost its goal   I don't want to do anything,just nothing at all But from where is this coming, how did I fall? This is so not me, and yet I am not even worried  I want an outside force to lend me its motion, unhurried! I seek no real answer, why do I need to know? The restless spirit today wants to go with the flow. For a while, let me silently watch my spirits ebb away, Allow me to detach and from my chosen path, stray! Surely, its fine for my shoulders to momentarily, droop? Its ok to wish to lose one's self in a crowd, or a group? Grant me the luxury today, to palpate my solitariness To feel nothing within, simply wander about, completely aimless. I seek your strength t...

"Expectation is the root of all heartache." - William Shakespeare Wise man indeed. Something I learnt very early in life too.....if one can control one's expectation from those around, it is possible to avoid a lot of disappointments and heartaches. And then when those people actually do something for you, it feels like a bonus! I guess this is what the enlightened breed also preach - that you need to control your mind, and its expectations and when you succeed, you feel no pain, only sublime peace. Well, I am not there ....not even as close as I would like to consider myself. Infact, I also question the feasibility and desirability of this controlling of expectations......we all know that the more you love, the more you tend to expect; the more you tend to expect, the more you risk disappointment and hurt. But does that stop us? Isn't that an intrinsic part of the web of relationships that really matter? Isn't that what makes us living, breathing souls? ...