For the restless spirit!

Now, I am now the mother of an adult ( and we shall not focus on how old that makes me!! ); my daughter turned 18 last week. Till her birthday actually arrived, I was busy with preparations to make it special for my princess. I was unprepared for something else ..... When I woke up that morning, I was taken aback by a little tug I felt within, a little pain that seemed to have appeared from nowhere. I walked into my daughter's room - she was still sleeping - and the tug got stronger, the eyes welled up..... I rushed out of her room! I sat down to wonder what happened? I had woken up with no sad feelings, then why couldn't I hold back the tears?  A little while later, as I sipped my coffee and pulled myself back together, I realized what this was all about ..... my soul was reminding me that I was THERE!!!!! That point in every parent's life when the long letting go begins..... And it registered only that morning ... that despite being an integr...

2014 was a dark year for me. But with God's grace and the strength and support of my loved ones, I made it through the storm. I survived.  I started with 2015 with very little expectations. I was focussing only on 1 dream, 1 goal and otherwise, just taking time to stabilize.... to learn to breathe again.  And my Shepherd kept me going. His blessings were manifested in my faith, my courage, my daughter, my "connects", my little drops of "blue"....  Today, as I look back at the first 6 months of 2015, I breathe a lot easier than I could afford to do last year.... barring one huge black spot in this period that rattled me again... He has been kind. I am thankful for kind mercies. Yet, I know it all could change again, as it did before, so I have learnt to make more of each day than before. I have learnt to appreciate more, to expect less.  And my recent experience has recapitulated my belief in remaining positive - even wh...