For the restless spirit!

The restless spirit has to lose the baggage.... How else can the spirit roam ...wild and free...uninhibited? Today, I did something I do not like too much but forcibly have to do, once in a while - clean my cupboards, to make space for the new stuff that I compulsively seem to acquire. Bags that catch my fancy, sarees that I love wearing, jewelry that I keep adding to my already "more than required" collection...the list goes on..... As I spent long and tiring hours this afternoon, making tough, painful, even "emotional" decisions about what to keep and what to let go of....I realized the importance of this kind of cleansing in almost all aspects of our lives, definitely mine! The facts are straight - there is only that much space in your cabinet, there is that much basic attire that you will always "need", but then there are your "desires", your "wants" ....and that amounts to what I call "luggage". Now beyond a point...

What happened to "fun"?? This evening, I sent a very close friend an image that said..Let's be friends till we die...and then  become Ghost friends...glide through walls and scare the shit out of people!! I thought that was hilarious ...seemed like so much fun to believe momentarily that we could. I even started making a list of people I'd like to scare and boy, I was grinning from ear to ear :) Sadly, this friend of mine did not respond.....maybe it was not "fun" or even too "childish" to respond to :( Which brings me to think : what happened to "fun"? Where does it say that as you grow older, you need to stop having simple fun? Why do we stop doing things for the sheer fun of it and nothing else? We all used to, as kids, right? Then what happened? Age, maturity, responsibilities, career, life? At which point were we supposed to give up the joy of "having fun"? because unfortunately, I see that most of us have done that...

10:38 pm, May 25  Dubai Don't know about the restless bit, but I am definitely traveling much more than I should be ...... just back from my third trip to the City of Joy in the last 2 months!! Even the immigration officer commented .....and each time, the situation has been far from happy... Anyways, will not delve much into the personal battles that God seems throwing my way like darts .....I am dealing ok - sometimes I break down, sometimes I get defiant, sometimes I become wise and philosophical and take it all in my stride ( like I actually have an option to do otherwise??? ) ...anyways, as I said, I am OK! What I would like to talk about today is my City of Joy - my Kolkata and a lot of it possibly applies to the rest of Incredible India too. Those who know me well, know that while I live in Dubai for the past 7 years, I have never quite got used to this place and while I like its comfort and conveniences and most importantly, the money and lifestyle it has gifted me...

3. 47 am - May 20, 2013 I restart a journey I had started twice before and never managed to carry on .....! I wish me Good Luck. Yes, restless I still am .... sleepless more aptly, if one notes the time of the night that I embark on this journey.... But I would like to channelize my energies (that keep me awake and restless - hope you are listening buddies??) into something else, into something positive, something interesting, something fun! So here goes....my attempt at lightening up the atmosphere around me that seems to be a bit too dark for my comfort. Maybe I am completely losing the plot here - I mean maybe I should be seriously worried and should work towards addressing those "concerns" or "derailers" ( I love consult-speak!) but surprisingly, I am not.....not anymore. More and more, I am seeking refuge in the age-old adage that what is meant to be, will be...there's only that much I can control! Thanks Covey - you rock. Over the last few months...