A different attempt!

3. 47 am - May 20, 2013

I restart a journey I had started twice before and never managed to carry on .....! I wish me Good Luck.

Yes, restless I still am .... sleepless more aptly, if one notes the time of the night that I embark on this journey....

But I would like to channelize my energies (that keep me awake and restless - hope you are listening buddies??) into something else, into something positive, something interesting, something fun! So here goes....my attempt at lightening up the atmosphere around me that seems to be a bit too dark for my comfort.

Maybe I am completely losing the plot here - I mean maybe I should be seriously worried and should work towards addressing those "concerns" or "derailers" ( I love consult-speak!) but surprisingly, I am not.....not anymore. More and more, I am seeking refuge in the age-old adage that what is meant to be, will be...there's only that much I can control! Thanks Covey - you rock.

Over the last few months, I have mentally scrutinized - tossed and turned like a salad - things that are going "wrong" and tried to diagnose. I have picked up arguments, fought with people around me, more importantly, with myself and even with God. That was a good one indeed - and I actually thought I could score on that one - thankfully the One Above has higher maturity levels than lesser mortals like me... and I can see why - Thank GOD :)

But this ain't going anywhere and hence this attempt to try different. My work entails me to push people and organizations to "change" - you want different things, you have to try different routes - that's what I say to all and sundry. But when it comes to myself, do I practice what I preach? Hell, no! So this is going to be an attempt to try a different route to deal with my restless soul..... Woohooo! That even sounds much better :)

So what am I going to write about? I don't really know as this just came to me, at this very indecent hour, after a very long working day.....so not possibly my sharpest! But what I do know is that I am naturally a person that cannot brood for long, I am a complete ostrich.....I simply refuse to look at all that is negative and those blinkers have actually helped me in getting so far my life and I am not going to abandon them as yet. Yes, that may make me sound cuckoo, unrealistic...even crazy...worse, even schizophrenic ( I seriously must look up that disorder and its symptoms soon ) , but there you go, that's me - I am who I am, and no one's approval is required. So yes, I am going to write about all the positives that I come across in my life today ( and since its always a roller coaster and I am a bit on the downside now ) there may not be a significant many. Nonetheless, I shall try and focus on the glass - half full..

I think I feel better already ....or maybe its that eluding sleep catching up...and about time!!!

Peace out. Keep watching this space :)

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