For the restless spirit!

I have hesitated many times, before I could bring myself to blog about this ..... not sure I qualified to comment on something so close to home; not sure my perspective was not unnecessarily colored.... but as I looked around and witnessed the same things happening over and over again... I felt a suffocating need to share - if not anything, just my own views and reflections on something I have seen so closely.  It's about this institution called "marriage". Most of my friends (including me) come from times when a marriage was meant for keeps. Unlike times earlier to us, you could still "play around" before marriage, "test waters" if you had to, take a little more time than the earlier generations, have a lot more freedom than your parents to chose your partners.... but when you decided to tie the knot, it was kind of a lifetime commitment. Yet, as the years passed, a lot of us started having this nagging fear that "marital bliss" as we...

Today I speak with less vulnerability.  The year has gone, past.... it can touch me no more.....It's last few days somehow caused a nervousness I didn't understand. I felt the need to hide, to lie low  .... it was like all of last year's ugly shadows came up to haunt me one last time, before they finally flew away or disintegrated or whatever....it was rough. But it's done now. 2014 is history.  Yet, 2014 has been a watershed - a great teacher to me - unlike many many years that went before it. And I have realized why its lessons hit so hard....It was my lack of preparedness for them, my naivety - for which I have no one to blame but myself.  So, as I look back from the shores of 2015, I realize that I also have to be kind to my teacher .....and here goes.... 2014:  I will never forget you for .... the vast difference in how I started the year and how I ended it reminding me once again - harshly,...