Cheers to lessons learned ......

Today I speak with less vulnerability. 

 The year has gone, past.... it can touch me no more.....It's last few days somehow caused a nervousness I didn't understand. I felt the need to hide, to lie low  .... it was like all of last year's ugly shadows came up to haunt me one last time, before they finally flew away or disintegrated or whatever....it was rough.

 But it's done now. 2014 is history. 

 Yet, 2014 has been a watershed - a great teacher to me - unlike many many years that went before it. And I have realized why its lessons hit so hard....It was my lack of preparedness for them, my naivety - for which I have no one to blame but myself. 

So, as I look back from the shores of 2015, I realize that I also have to be kind to my teacher .....and here goes....

 2014: 

 I will never forget you for ....

  • the vast difference in how I started the year and how I ended it
  • reminding me once again - harshly, cruelly - that expectations from close connects tends to bring disappointments, and if they are really close, these disappointments can even kill
  • helping me find new perspectives on life, new goals, new priorities that help me stay strong, focused and are more meaningful - that have helped me transition as a human being 
  • reminding me that that I still have a lot of spunk in me and will not take much wrongdoing lying down - I still have what it takes to fight back, with dignity and self respect
  • reiterating my firm belief that I am still blessed - as I look around those who have rallied around me this year and helped me stand tall.
For all of this, I owe you, 2014,  a bow and a "thank you"! Indeed, you will be difficult to remove from my memory....

2015: 

As we shake hands and get acquainted, I know not much has changed apart from the calendar dates, but I feel somehow, safer, on your banks......and here's what I look forward to.... 
  • For a "kinder" and "softer" tomorrow not just for me, for but many struggling with their lives around me 
  • For more Peace than exists now  - in the world and in the world within each one of us - for the sake of sanity
  • For more Hope - because its all too easy to be cynical in this world we live in, but that's not how it was meant to be. We must not give up our dreams.
I for one, won't. I may have to adjust, but I won't give up, for sure.....I'll just keep walking 
......



 

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