For the restless spirit!

My daughter has started the last exam she will take while in school - then she goes on to college. I am hopeful that she will go to college in a distant land - far away from me. Many close to me find this difficult to fathom that given where I stand in life, I wish for her to go away and live away from me.....  To be completely honest, it freaks me out too. Sometimes, my mind fast forwards to the end of this year, when she is not around ....... and I plunge into severe depression..... I howl softly into my blanket, cuddling my soft pillow.... But I don't dwell on it too much ..... I try and shift my focus as soon as possible ..... that is a bridge I will cross, when I come to it. For now, I bring the focus back to the excitement of a 17 year old preparing to leave her nest and face the world alone.....I share her feverish anticipation.  I want to give her wings, I have always done this  ......wings... to fly as high as she wishes, to places an...

There was something on my mind ....the past few months.... a situation that I knew would come about, sometime or the other.... and I could never predict which way I would react. And because I was not sure, I may have been possibly trying to avoid the situation in a way..... Yesterday, it happened .... and I responded .... in a way that surprised me too. There was no huge explosion inside, it didn't even whimper actually.... And I learnt again .....  The best way to deal with our inner most fears or doubts is to confront them.....  Instead, most of the times, we shy away as we are not so sure of ourselves and our reactions - we don't know what to expect, but we do expect being uncomfortable and that is enough for us to avoid situations, confrontations, people, reality.  Yet, I have always seen that when we do muster up courage or when there is no way to avoid and we have to stare our fear in the eye...... there's usually not much to it.......