When nothing is going right......as they say, go left!!

Times seem to be bad indeed. 

Not only for me. But as I look around, a lot of my close friends, acquaintances, colleagues seem to be going rough times right now - in some way or another. In different ways for each one of them, no doubt, but trying times nevertheless....

Some say it's all in the stars and the planetary positions.....general wellbeing seems to have been hit...badly.

Maybe it's partially because of our choices, I guess I will grudgingly agree. But not all of it, no way! Sometimes things happen far in excess of what we deserve, and all at the same time - and we get overwhelmed, naturally. 

Worry, stress, tension, cynicism, depression tend to take over the cockpit and we seem to be unable to control the nose-dive, even though we know we are headed towards where we'd rather not be.

Well, I am there - as with many of you, and while I pull at every bit of positivity at my command ( and trust me, I have oodles ) I am still left gasping at times, looking heavenwards and wondering which way He is looking ......

But I realize that He too, may be victim of these rough times - there are far too many of us that are looking for Divine Intervention - must be a long queue outside His door......

I however, remain firm that He will address each and every of our concerns - as He knows best, He will show us the way, holding our hands.... but in His own time, as the queue slowly moves forward.

But till then, I have decided to take a few things in my hand, to keep my head above waters, to keep afloat, and not drown..... and I strongly advocate the same to all of you out there, in a similar boat....

  

Go left or don't budge, stay put - simply refuse to get bogged down. Become adamant. Dig your heels in. 

Like I am doing - I fall time and time again, but I refuse to stay down.

I allow myself my occasional tears, my anger, my hurts.
I allow myself the liberty to act "unreasonably" and "out of character" at these times.
I allow myself to "fake it till I make it".
I allow myself to be pampered, even if it's only by me.
I allow myself time, to heal, to lick my wounds occasionally and feel a little sorry for myself.
I take care of myself - I try and eat well, even that sinful chocolate cake at times with no guilt; I work out as much as possible; I do things that bring me peace - however short-lived - reading, music.

And above all, I continue to dream - about times when all my troubles will simply vanish, like they never existed, and there will be rainbows in the sky and peace in my mind.

All the while, I keep checking on that long queue I seem to be in.....to see how much I have moved and how much further I need to sustain.....

If all goes wrong for now, I simply won't go with them. Period.